Hello everybody! Today's post will have lots paragraphs talking about random stuffs. Common sense, super wordy. Kekekeke.
So yup, I'm back from my 2 days 2 nights (sounds weird but whatever) chalet with my dear cousins and aunts. Barbecue on the first day and I've never thought that preparing and starting for a barbecue would be that tiring because when I was younger, the adults will be the ones preparing and all I do is wait for food to be served hahaha. Food, charcoal, starting of fire, putting the charcoal in a kind of formation so the fire will be big enough, and blah blah blah. Second day, cycling at Pulau Ubin with dad, sissy and 2 of my cousins (because the rest were lazy). I swear the slopes were super fun, especially those steep ones! Of course, those slopes going up were horrible. So shocked that dad was the only one who is able to ride all the way up the slopes no matter how steep they were and yet he's the oldest. The younger ones should be the one able to go right up, but it was opposite. We (the 4 of us) were already dead when we were at 1/3 of the slope. ._. There were many many nice sceneries over there even though there are lots of mosquitoes there and my legs are swollen. Boohoooooo. Wanted to swim at the sea in front of the chalet but the water was fucking dirty. There were even dead fishes near the shore. omg wtf yuck gross. Because we can't swim, we ended up playing wii. I swear I hate car racing games because I suck at them. Went home at night and K.O immediately after watching the last episode of my favourite KDrama.
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Sometimes, I feel like I don't have any friends. But in fact, I have friends. Lots of them. Just that it's either we don't talk anymore, or we don't really hangout with each other that much, or they have their own good friends since years ago, or idkwhat. Anything that you can think of. That's what makes me feel that I have no friends.
I want and need to have a friend for myself. I'm not asking for too much, I guess. Just a friend for myself. We will go shopping together, taste good food together, try out new things together, have fun together, joke together, share our problems together, go crazy together, study together, anything that a pair of best friend does.
He/she won't have any other friends except for me. Okay wait, that's a little too overboard. Maybe just acquaintances or normal friends. Because I am the type of person who gets jealous easily and I fucking hate that. I get paranoid easily too and I really don't know how to cure myself. So it's safer when he/she just have me as his/her best friend. I sound so lesbian but I feel better this way. Just like what I read from books, girl will always have their best friend and they are best friend since forever. They attend the same school together until college or university. They have similar hobbies and love the same type of guy. Their parents know each other and both families are in great terms. People envied them because their friendship is so perfect. I want a friendship like this. Maybe I've been reading too much books and that's why I start to "live in the stories". Or maybe I've been feeling lonely for too long. I just want a friend/best friend for myself. Just myself.
That's very much impossible to happen but I'm still hoping that it will. Maybe when I'm older?
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To be honest, I don't need a boyfriend now because I feel that it's useless. I mean, I'm only fifteen this year. Even though I'm a teenager already, I don't feel mature enough for this kind of thing. The young generation these days think that they are so mature but in fact, it's a no. In my opinion, I feel that we are only growing up and we should just focus on our studies. It's impossible to not have any crushes in your teenage years but still, I guess we should keep it as a crush instead of confessing. Yes yes, I know, you will regret if you don't confess because maybe the person likes you too. But look, how many people at around our age have long lasting relationships, like at least 3 years? I'm sure there are some but most of them only lasted for about a year or a few months. After that, they get heartbroken and they can't focus on the main point of their life at this age, study. I know, teenage years are all about falling in love, making mistakes, having fun and blah blah blah. Yes, I agree because I myself love doing all those. And after that, giving excuse for ourselves that it's just a journey of life. We won't learn if we don't make mistakes. Sometimes, some mistakes are mistakes which will ruin your life and you have no way to turn back anymore even if you've learnt your lesson. So, think about it again.
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Okay enough of those. So, TODAY IS LOUIS WILLIAM TOMLINSON'S TWENTY-FIRST BIRTHDAY!!! Yipee yay! Boobear is finally 21! ^^ Spent my day at home even though it's Christmas Eve because of my swollen leg and have to complete my homeworks! A few more days to new year and school reopen. Totally not ready.
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