14: Let-my-hair-down Friday

Hello! So I've been quite busy with school and I swear I'm going bonkers soon. O Levels's still so far away.......wait let me finish my sentence first, and time flies really fast. Just take a look at how fast 2012 had flown past. I have been working hard, but not enough. I'm so stressed because I'm really afraid of my results in the end. I AM REALLY VERY DETERMINED TO DO MY VERY FUCKING BEST. But........... because I felt that I was so stress and needed a break from books (fuck myself and my excuses), I went to town with my dear Bella. 

OOTD: Topshop black cropped shirt, leather wine shorts, studded bag and studded shoes

We were supposed to meet at 3.30pm at Woodlands to have our lunch at Gelare and get her Jansport bag. But I went to take a nap and woke up only at 4pm. ._." Thank god woodlands was quite near to my house. Rushed like mad and reached there at around 5pm. Gelare was so yummy and affordable! Just that it makes me feel full and hungry easily.............. It's ok since it's quite cheap. 

Headed to town after that as I wanted to buy some clothes since I've been wearing the same thing almost all the time. Found a really nice looking tight-fitting dress from H&M, it fitted me, BUT......... CAN SEE MY PANTY LINE. ARGH. It was so nice and exactly what I wanted. Shall get a thin panty from sorella/triumph/wherever (oops too much information), and find that dress again. If I am fated to buy it, I will get it. Hahahaha. Most probably no because I don't even know when will be the last time I'm going out again. :/ O'wells, it's ok. 

Shopped around ION only because it was already really late when I wanted to go to Far East. AND I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND ANY CLOTHES WHICH CAUGHT MY EYE. Sigh. May we meet again, town.

Some pictures+retarded looking pictures for you to enjoy: 

That's all for today! Bye! 

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12: Flaws

I believe each and every one of the humans on earth, be it dead or alive, have flaws. Including me. I have so much flaws that I can't even finish listing everything within one day. (ok maybe that's too exaggerating. whatever) Today I'm gonna talk about my flaws, of course not all. Just some that's really disturbing.

I have the most annoying personalities ever. I don't even know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm so disgusting, annoying, unpredictable. I get jealous too easily, even over the smallest, tiniest things. I hate when people don't do things properly. I hate people who squeal too much. I hate when people does not understand me. I can't stand it whenever I get sudden mood swings and start to vent it on others. I hate it when I get so damn paranoid about everyone's actions towards me. And most of all, I especially hate it when I get left out.
(ok that's more like a list of what I hate............ ok who cares)

I have the weirdest and most sudden mood swings. I feel like crying, ranting, shouting, pushing everyone away, irritating others and so much more. And all of these just come suddenly. I guess friends around me have surely felt it before. I'm so sorry. I'm a loser because I always let my emotions control myself.

I feel that everyone is drifting away from me and I have no idea why. Maybe it's because of my weird and crazy yet annoying attitude. I feel like ranting but I can't seem to find anybody to rant to. I want to pour out my bottle filled with feelings to the brim but I have no one. I feel so sad but no one is there to cheer me up. I feel so sick but no one is there to care for me. I just want to cry my heart out but I have no shoulder to cry on.

I can't stand being left out because I will feel so lonely and nobody likes me. And because of all these, I feel that I should distant myself away from everyone because I'm just an extra factor in their life. But again, I can't stand being lonely. Arghhhhh everything just makes me wanna bang my head on the wall and bleed to death.

11: Change

Because there are people around me telling me that I'm bossy, I've decided to change.

I want to try to think for others first before considering about myself. Maybe they need certain things more than I do, I will give in to them. Although I got that "I really don't like to do this" feeling, I will control myself. Because losers are those who let emotions control you and winners are those who controls emotions. Also,I know I will get used to it soon, if I keep on doing it.

10: First week of 2013

Hello everybody! I know it's kinda late but, first of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

My apologies for not blogging for days. I've been lazy. 2013 came so quickly. Just a few days ago, 2 January, it was first day of school and now it's already 5 January, the first Saturday of 2013! Sec one orientation has finally ended and I'm so happy because I'm done with crab walking! It was so tiring I felt like I was gonna die. Skipped 2 days of lesson because of sec one orientation and I'm gonna catch up as much as I can!

I'm not gonna set any resolutions for myself this year because I will end up not completing any of them anyway. I'm just gonna work my ass off for O's........ as if. To be honest, I'm not that hardworking. I'm so lazy I don't know how to describe myself. But still, O levels is like a super major thing in my life right now. No time for boys and other unnecessary things. Gonna cut down on using phone and laptop. I will live like a nerd now because I have to. No more partying and slacking so much during weekends. Maybe Sundays will be my revision days/rest day. I don't know. Anything but partying and slacking!

Still, I will try to blog as much as I can because it improves my English (I guess). Maybe once a week or so. So yup, that's all I have to say for now! Enjoy your weekend, guys, before hell comes.

Ciao!