12: Flaws

I believe each and every one of the humans on earth, be it dead or alive, have flaws. Including me. I have so much flaws that I can't even finish listing everything within one day. (ok maybe that's too exaggerating. whatever) Today I'm gonna talk about my flaws, of course not all. Just some that's really disturbing.

I have the most annoying personalities ever. I don't even know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm so disgusting, annoying, unpredictable. I get jealous too easily, even over the smallest, tiniest things. I hate when people don't do things properly. I hate people who squeal too much. I hate when people does not understand me. I can't stand it whenever I get sudden mood swings and start to vent it on others. I hate it when I get so damn paranoid about everyone's actions towards me. And most of all, I especially hate it when I get left out.
(ok that's more like a list of what I hate............ ok who cares)

I have the weirdest and most sudden mood swings. I feel like crying, ranting, shouting, pushing everyone away, irritating others and so much more. And all of these just come suddenly. I guess friends around me have surely felt it before. I'm so sorry. I'm a loser because I always let my emotions control myself.

I feel that everyone is drifting away from me and I have no idea why. Maybe it's because of my weird and crazy yet annoying attitude. I feel like ranting but I can't seem to find anybody to rant to. I want to pour out my bottle filled with feelings to the brim but I have no one. I feel so sad but no one is there to cheer me up. I feel so sick but no one is there to care for me. I just want to cry my heart out but I have no shoulder to cry on.

I can't stand being left out because I will feel so lonely and nobody likes me. And because of all these, I feel that I should distant myself away from everyone because I'm just an extra factor in their life. But again, I can't stand being lonely. Arghhhhh everything just makes me wanna bang my head on the wall and bleed to death.