You know that feeling when you know that a guy fancies you or when your crush likes you back? I think it's really wonderful because just when you are thinking that you look like a piece of junk, you can console yourself and say that you are not, at least there are still guys who will fancy you. I don't know but it's like a boost of self-confidence and self-esteem (are they the same? lol). Don't you agree with me? It's like even if all the girls think that you are ugly as hell, when there is even only just one guy who fancies you, all the other girls' comments don't matter any more. Is it just me or...?
If I typed those out, surely I've felt those feelings before... right? Yeah, I used to. It's not that I like a lot of guys liking me, it's just that it's good to know that at least I'm not that horrible looking. I used to have a crush and I've even chit-chat with him everyday for a period of time and that really boosted my self-confidence.
Honestly, ever since I lose contact with all guys (I sound like a whore but please don't misunderstand me!), I start to have lesser confidence in myself in terms of my appearance. That's also the reason why I started to become inactive on Instagram because I think I look like shit. Again, honestly, I really like having many people liking my photos. I don't know about other people but it makes me happy. Do I sound very attention-seeking? I don't know... I am envious of those girls who look so pretty effortlessly and whenever they post a picture of themselves, within a few minutes, they have already gotten so many likes.
Sometimes I tell myself that all those things doesn't matter and even my sister told me, the purpose of Instagram is not having your photos gain many likes but share with your followers about cool things or just random things and also a picture update of your current state. It's right too... So I'm really trying to change my mindset and start to get active on Instagram again hahaha. This is like a "getting active again in Instagram" post but NO.
I'm just sharing about what kind of person I am and mostly just reflecting on this awful side of myself.
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Monday, March 24, 2014
47: My bad
Hello everybody again!!! I feel so guilty for not updating my blog for about 2 months so sorry!!! But on the other hand, I don't think many people read my blog so........ Hahahaha ok anyway, just updating!!! I have already prepared a draft and have yet complete it. I have to find pictures from 4 years ago and it's very difficult because I forgotten where my memory cards went to and not many are uploaded on Facebook. So please give me some time people (who are reading).
The whole of February was crazily hectic as I have work EVERYDAY. And by everyday, I really mean everyday including weekends. Except for some days where I get to get off days. But those off days weren't really off days because I still went out with my friends and also visited IT Show to look at some laptops. Now that February has ended, which was quite fast, I finally get a break from work! Well, I'm still working but not so crazily. Maybe at least twice a week?
The enrolment package for my polytechnic had arrived a few weeks ago and I've also submitted it! I'm excited and also really scared at the same time because I don't have any friends who are in the same course as me. And if you don't already know, I'm quite an anti-social person. Well, maybe not anti-social but I'm quite shy at first. I'm just hoping for the best!
Actually my polytechnic is quite stupid, I may say. School starts on 21 April 2014 and guess what? That's also the date when the laptop sales, or whatever you call that, starts in my school. I don't really understand how it works.......
Talking about laptops, I've made my mind to not get a Macbook even though I desperately want one...
Firstly, I've looked up on the Internet and it's said that the best laptop recommended for students in business course are Lenovo laptops.
Secondly, I don't think my dad would want to spend a bomb just to get me a laptop.
Thirdly, I don't really know how to use a Macbook. I'm still more familiar with Windows. However, Windows 8 is seriously... I don't know how to say but it's so complicated that I don't even know where to start from. To think, my third argument is kinda invalid...
Fourthly, I would most probably be using my laptop to do lots of things like watching shows online, doing homework, surfing the net and etc. So if I'm gonna buy a Macbook, I guess it would be operating almost 24 hours and I think it will die very fast and I will have many problems if I have to rush my homework. And as you know, Macbook is quite expensive so if such an expensive laptop dies, I think I have to get ready to have my head chopped off by my dad or at least, my ears will suffer for a while.
So in the end, the Lenovo laptop is decided for my poly life~ Before I can totally relax about choosing laptop brands, my dad disagrees again, despite having me helping to save his money by not getting a Macbook. :( He said Lenovo is too expensive. I don't know but I'm gonna try to convince him, regardless of anything. Pray for me please lol.
I've been catching up on Running Man but I've only just reached the 102th episode. There's still a long long way to go..... But my advice is, don't watch too much in a day because you will end up laughing in your sleep like what happened to me. I was laughing the whole day while having a Running Man marathon, even until 12 am I'm still watching then I slept at around 3 am. I suddenly heard myself laughing very loudly in the morning when I was sleeping. I think I woke myself up my laughing so loudly. I know it sounds ridiculous but it's true. Luckily I was in the room alone and my parents have gone to work. Or else I would have been teased by my family for doing a stupid thing.
So I guess that's all for today! Sorry for ending so abruptly. This is awkward ok bye. Sorry no pictures I'm a boring person. Hehehehe.
Till then, x.
The whole of February was crazily hectic as I have work EVERYDAY. And by everyday, I really mean everyday including weekends. Except for some days where I get to get off days. But those off days weren't really off days because I still went out with my friends and also visited IT Show to look at some laptops. Now that February has ended, which was quite fast, I finally get a break from work! Well, I'm still working but not so crazily. Maybe at least twice a week?
The enrolment package for my polytechnic had arrived a few weeks ago and I've also submitted it! I'm excited and also really scared at the same time because I don't have any friends who are in the same course as me. And if you don't already know, I'm quite an anti-social person. Well, maybe not anti-social but I'm quite shy at first. I'm just hoping for the best!
Actually my polytechnic is quite stupid, I may say. School starts on 21 April 2014 and guess what? That's also the date when the laptop sales, or whatever you call that, starts in my school. I don't really understand how it works.......
Talking about laptops, I've made my mind to not get a Macbook even though I desperately want one...
Firstly, I've looked up on the Internet and it's said that the best laptop recommended for students in business course are Lenovo laptops.
Secondly, I don't think my dad would want to spend a bomb just to get me a laptop.
Thirdly, I don't really know how to use a Macbook. I'm still more familiar with Windows. However, Windows 8 is seriously... I don't know how to say but it's so complicated that I don't even know where to start from. To think, my third argument is kinda invalid...
Fourthly, I would most probably be using my laptop to do lots of things like watching shows online, doing homework, surfing the net and etc. So if I'm gonna buy a Macbook, I guess it would be operating almost 24 hours and I think it will die very fast and I will have many problems if I have to rush my homework. And as you know, Macbook is quite expensive so if such an expensive laptop dies, I think I have to get ready to have my head chopped off by my dad or at least, my ears will suffer for a while.
So in the end, the Lenovo laptop is decided for my poly life~ Before I can totally relax about choosing laptop brands, my dad disagrees again, despite having me helping to save his money by not getting a Macbook. :( He said Lenovo is too expensive. I don't know but I'm gonna try to convince him, regardless of anything. Pray for me please lol.
I've been catching up on Running Man but I've only just reached the 102th episode. There's still a long long way to go..... But my advice is, don't watch too much in a day because you will end up laughing in your sleep like what happened to me. I was laughing the whole day while having a Running Man marathon, even until 12 am I'm still watching then I slept at around 3 am. I suddenly heard myself laughing very loudly in the morning when I was sleeping. I think I woke myself up my laughing so loudly. I know it sounds ridiculous but it's true. Luckily I was in the room alone and my parents have gone to work. Or else I would have been teased by my family for doing a stupid thing.
So I guess that's all for today! Sorry for ending so abruptly. This is awkward ok bye. Sorry no pictures I'm a boring person. Hehehehe.
Till then, x.
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