50: Trust issues I have

What does it feels like to suddenly know that someone whom you least expected, actually bitches behind your back? So so so damn speechless I can only laugh when someone told me about it. I mean, wow, just wow. I fucking hate it when people do this to me. Even though I used to do it, I no longer do it now. Well, at least not to friends whom I am okay with. I guess I'm sort of matured over this kind of things already? Hahaha what a joke to say myself getting matured.

Back to topic, I really don't know how am I suppose to trust people nowadays. My poly friends are so scary I swear. They can be so kind and act like they are so close to you in front of you but actually behind your back, they stabs a knife into you. 17 freaking years old already. STILL SO CHILDISH? I don't know what the heck are they even thinking???!?!?!? What is wrong with banging the table when I laugh? It's my habit, you have a problem with it? Do I really act cute? DO I? Excuse me, do you even know me that well to comment about me? Fuck no. I can't stand it ok. How suffocating I can't even scream in front of his face and scold him because that would just make everything worse. But I am so angry, my heart keeps beating so quickly.

I don't even know who to trust in my school already. Sucks. Life fucking sucks. I can't even bring myself closer to that person. I just want to stay away as far as I can. Horrible people. I can't trust anyone anymore. So hurt.

49: Catching up on my life

Hello to you who are/is reading my blog! (I'm kinda bad at grammar...) Anyways, yeah, I'm finally updating this dead space! June holiday has passed and I'm back to school. Oh gosh, I dread school everyday so much you have no idea. Everything is getting so much more difficult after the holidays. I swear this is not the poly life that I've expected. I thought everything will be so easy and life will be so fun and enjoyable. Now I know, I actually prefer Secondary School life to poly life. Hahahaha but anyway, it's good that I am free from the horribly stressful 'O' Levels! Guess both have their bad sides huh?

MoooooooOoOOoOooooooving on.......

Since it was Iswan's birthday, the class had a Friday kinda blues for him because that's his favourite colour. Now that I look at the picture, it's really damn blue and all shades of blue. Hahahaha.

Met up with the bitch for study session and a little of catching up. Miss you sooooo much. ♥

Went to Marmalade Toast with Carel, Jeff and Zosi for some high tea session HAHAHA. More like dinner actually. Their cakes are damn niceeee. Not forgetting their huge ass meringue. OH SO DAMN GOOOOD.

Last day of school before our holiday starts, we kinda celebrated Joey's birthday kekekeke. Everyone wearing floral since it's her favourite. Hehehe.

 Birthday gurlllllllllllll.
lol we looked so awkward. HAHA.

 Mad cow Carel. 

Jeff, Zosi, myself, Carel Joey, Nicole and Qin Yun.
(Missing Tatiana since she went to work.)

Okay that's all. Hahaha, I shall update on my June Holidays next time. ^^

Till then~