What does it feels like to suddenly know that someone whom you least expected, actually bitches behind your back? So so so damn speechless I can only laugh when someone told me about it. I mean, wow, just wow. I fucking hate it when people do this to me. Even though I used to do it, I no longer do it now. Well, at least not to friends whom I am okay with. I guess I'm sort of matured over this kind of things already? Hahaha what a joke to say myself getting matured.
Back to topic, I really don't know how am I suppose to trust people nowadays. My poly friends are so scary I swear. They can be so kind and act like they are so close to you in front of you but actually behind your back, they stabs a knife into you. 17 freaking years old already. STILL SO CHILDISH? I don't know what the heck are they even thinking???!?!?!? What is wrong with banging the table when I laugh? It's my habit, you have a problem with it? Do I really act cute? DO I? Excuse me, do you even know me that well to comment about me? Fuck no. I can't stand it ok. How suffocating I can't even scream in front of his face and scold him because that would just make everything worse. But I am so angry, my heart keeps beating so quickly.
I don't even know who to trust in my school already. Sucks. Life fucking sucks. I can't even bring myself closer to that person. I just want to stay away as far as I can. Horrible people. I can't trust anyone anymore. So hurt.
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