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When you can actually feel that you're obviously being left out. Wanna know how is it like to be left out? Here it goes. You will be no different from being invisible, a wall, a ghost, a person who doesn't even exist. They can talk together, discuss something and completely ignore your existence. That fucking sucks. Sometimes I'm so tired of this feeling I just want to run away and migrate to another country but I have no choice, no money, no nothing. I feel so disliked by everyone and whenever I get too affected, I just feel like breaking down, not caring about who is around me because that feeling is really unbearable. But I can't because I will be judged. People will think that I'm seeking for attention. Why is this society so god damn judgmental? You get judged for everything single thing, not even excluding your outer appearance and your style of dressing. Yes, I say people judge too much. I am one of them too. It's like whenever you see someone, you judge even without finding out what's the meaning behind it. I do that too. It's like something that people cannot really avoid. At least I don't judge EVERY SINGLE THING. There's a limit to everything.

My patience, my tolerance level, they all have a limit. I can't tolerate being left out. I swear I can't. But what's the point? People don't even care if you can tolerate or not. They just do what they want and what they think is right. They sometimes don't even care about your feelings when they say or do something. But when they are the one experiencing it, they will complain and complain and you'll be like "so now you feel what I've felt." Then you feel guilty after that because you shouldn't be happy about that as you know that the feeling is really horrible. But again, you don't care because they are the ones who started being so insensitive.