I feel so sad right now, I just want to talk to someone so badly but there's no one except for this space.
It feels like everyone finds me a nuisance and no one cares about me. This feeling has always been with me since centuries ago. Managed to ignore it once because at that point of time, I know that there are people who still cares for me. Now? Everything is different and I can really sense people finding me very annoying every time. Body language shows everything.
It feels like everyone is making use of me because I never once mattered. I don't get hundreds and thousands of likes for my picture be it on Instagram or Facebook. I don't have large amount of followers on Twitter. I am not even a popular person, why would people even give a fuck about me? Sometimes, people only notice my existence when their good friends are not with them. I don't even belong anywhere. I'm just fitting in everywhere and anywhere I can. Trying too hard to fit in, actually.
MYE has just started and I'm already letting all these emotions take control of me. I used to be so strong, I don't even get affected by all these emotions so easily in the past. What has happened? I don't like this version of myself. It's so hard to live with. I would gladly die right now if i could.
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